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Friday, December 29, 2006

Every day is a new year










How cliché and cop-out it would be of me to write a reflection on all the great things that happened in 2006. Since so many publications are doing that, and this counts as a publication, no matter how smalltime bitches, I will resist. I will do a normal entry that has nothing to do with the fact that 2007 is coming in a couple of days. Let it come, I don’t care. It’s all semantics any way. Time is such a relative thing. So few of us believe in Christ, and those of us who know anything about history knows that even most of the catholic church concedes that he wasn’t born on January 1st in the year 0, or 1 for that matter. Anyway, because of that I see the new year (although this is an exaggerated point of view) as relatively arbitrary thing to celebrate. Don’t get me wrong, I’m up for spraying champagne at my friends and screaming, but I think the fact that at every big new year’s party without a TV people count down about 3 times on average. The first time is some jackass who wants to start the countdown early cause that seems funny when you’re hammered, the second time is someone who thinks their watch is exactly on time, and the third one is the one the crowd believes to be accurrate. This is a microscopic analogue to what actually happens on a grander scale. As the world turns, timezone after timezone ring in the new year. We wait for the sun to be exactly on the other side of the planet before we say it’s midnight, but then we let it err by the width of whatever our arbitrarily defined time zone happens to delineate for us. So since you will never exactly be able to know when it is one year since the last sloppily-determined new year’s eve, what’s the point? Have some drinks, reflect on the last 365 + ¼ days and enjoy. But don’t take it too seriously. Don’t make resolutions that will start on January 1st, why would you do that? Today it is exactly one year since exactly 365 + ¼ days ago, so what better time to make a change? You are as different now relative to a year ago as you will be on new year’s eve relative to the last one. On top of that, the earth is spinning circling an ever changing sun, what could be more dynamic than a roiling mass of nuclear fusion fire? Also, the galaxy moves through the universe at blinding speed, so to speak of the earth as being in the ‘same place’ as it was 1 year ago is just plain wrong. It looks to be in the same place as the sky, that’s about it. But a lot of good that does us, last year I’m pretty sure there was snow on the ground, this year I’m thinking maybe it’s a good time to re-open the pool at my parents’ place. I was pretty hot after our walk today, I could’ve used a dip. . .

Okay so apparently I went against my resolution not to talk about the new year. And now, perhaps, for a double entry. This has literally NOTHING to do with this. I’m going to make a random selection from my trip archives and tell a little story. . .

This will be a prime example of bullheaded stubbornness and laziness on my part, because I may have blogged this before, but I’m too lazy to check on this dial up-laden laptop deal. . .Please do me the courtesy of reading it again even if you’ve seen it before. It is work translating my shaky “laying on my stomach in the tent in a storm” scrawl. But I do it for you, because I heart you.

This is an excerpt from a Magnetawan river trip I did with Stu Holden this past summer, my first trip after being back from the Attawapiskat. The river was at a 30 year record, twice the average summer flow,20 portages in 7 days (instead of the usual 5), at the time of this writing I wasn’t aware of what we were in for. The river was absolutely wild and raging, I’d never seen anything like it. . . here’s how the caper went down
Ever watch the cartoon COPS?

Day 1

Stu Holden and I are camped at the usual 7 day Mag Day 1 site. The weather looks like it is going to be nice. Patches of blue sky shine behind blazing cotton candy streaks of sunrise clouds. I know: I was out there looking at it. Why was I up so earlu? Because I have some catching up to do. Our good position did not come without effort yesterday. Here’s what happened:
From the minute the bus dropped us off, I knew the river was high. I’ve been to this spot 6 or 7 times in my life, and that’s plenty. One glance at the hydraulics churning out from under the dam and down the chute that forms Knoepple’s rapids and I knew we were in for it. We put in with a quick portage, paddled along and did some practice paddling. The boys picked it up for the most part fairly quickly. Immediately I could see the signs on the river banks: ferns and trees were submerged. There were sets where there were usually only swifts, and wavetrains where once only ripples existed. Each V was followed by sharp eddy lines, the kids absolutely whipping in and out from their force, and almost tipping when they forgot to tilt. We came across sets I used to run that were now torrential, All little class I’s and II’s now upgraded to II’s and III’s. Every trickling waterfall was now a thunderous torrent, and we had to portage almost every set we came to. Morale ground down as it almost always does on Day 1 of this trip. The sky would either drizzle or rain cats and dogs on us, and just as Stu and I decided to run the boats down a set that I used to let the campers just drag down, the thunder hit. Bolt after bolt from every direction. We ran down the last 2 boats as it started, the campers walking through the woods to meet us. We were trying to give them a rest from portaging as we had been bushwhacking all afternoon. The flood conditions meant pulling off high up before sets, where portages did not exist. Some trails are just under water as it is right now. The weather closed in further as the boys tried to haul what they could. After hours of work we’d finally reached a portage that after an extra 400m of bushwhack would connect with the portage that led into our campsite. They’d made it as far as they could before losing the trail (it turned and went under water) so our things were piled in a spot in the darkening woods. The sky became a dark green, bathing everything in the light you might expect to find on a lake bottom. It became difficult to see in the woods even though it was 6:00 in the first week of August. We struggled to the site, up slippery granite steeps and through poison ivy infested creeks. As we were headed back for more the lightning became so severe that I rapidly explained lightning drill procedures to Stu and sent him back to the site to set up shelter with the kids. I told him to turn away any others looking to go back for more. I ran through the bushes along the shoreline, almost submerged in water. I was nervous because of my exposure on the riverbank to the open sky, which was now beyond furious. Furious is when the sky is angry with dark clouds – this sky was so dark green and rainy that it was 1 colour only, lit just by the lightning strikes behind it. It sounded to me like an intergalactic war was going on over my head. Echoes of distant explosions and close ones raged ever closer. I picked up the pace, trying not to duck into the woods for shelter, as time was of the essence. After about five or six minutes I mad it to the boats Stu and I had run down. I emptied the many litres of water that had accumulated in each and then pulled them up safely on shore, then flipped tem. Some of the lightning strikes were deafening now. I ran back to the pile of gear in the woods to see if anything essential was there. Map case, wannigan containing our kitchen, and raingear. I strapped it all together and dragged it, swearing and cursing through the woods. The wannigan slipped out of its harness completely, several time, and almost tumbled into the river. I finally arrived at the site, barely carrying it at this point, slipping on the needles, roots and wet granite under my feet, and feeling like I was going to overheat though the rain was pouring on me still. To make things even better, when Stu and I looked into my tent at night, before moving in, we noticed it was soaked inside. The fly had completely leaked! Irritating. How does a tent loose its waterproofness? We cooked burgers over a shitty fire and didn’t get to bed until 11:30. Today we need to go and get our boats. Hopefully the set next to our site is runnable. I’ve yet to go scout it. Also, we are somehow missing both water jugs. We’ve been purifying our water in an open bucket – GONG!! As if the river is trying to show us a sign, there is a fill metal motorboat flipped upside down and pinned, barely visible in the chute next to our site. We get the message.

I’m appending this now: the set next to our site was hilarious. It curved around a corner, with no eddies on the side. There was a small patch of trees and bushes right in the middle of the damned river, and one of our boats followed the current right into it. It’s not every day you see a boat of kids stuck dangerously in a patch of small trees in the middle of a river. I’d have to say the lack of any real eddy behind a feature like that made the rescue pretty fucking interesting. . .

Happy New Year

And I say that today because one year ago today it was exactly a year ago – today.

Love Marcus

Thursday, December 28, 2006

Setting Sail into the Sunset


Okay, I will try never to take that long of a hiatus again, but sweet christ I cannot promise anything. I feel like there is an angry crowd of blog readers gathering outside my door. People are starting to get pissed off an insulted at my absence, and I took it as a compliment before - now I'm starting to get scared. So under hostage-like conditions I'll try to write something interesting. . . by the way, I AM sorry. I have been busy for f's sakes people! Willsy, I know that last blog comment was by you "anonymous", what's next? A letter made up of text cut out of news paper articles saying you'll give me back my first born if I blog something? Well I don't care, that is not my kid Willsy, not my kid.


Billy Jean is playing in my head now. . ."wo-woooh, wo-woooh"



Anyway the reason I will try never to have that kind of hiatus again is that it puts so much pressure on after! I'm sitting here going "fuck, what is it they like so much? what do they REALLY want? Why do they read this? If I write about what I've been up to will there be a rebel uprising, a coup on my blog with the new dictator being Willsy or Bob, or maybe even Frankie or Lindsay?" So I will just start writing, and likely this will be about nothing more than what I've been up to lately, and I hope that pacifies you (nice doggy, nice. . .niiiiice). After this I should hit my stride again and blog as normal.



So awhile back we had this friggin' party. You might have heard about it? We had about 40 people up in this humpty bumpty, and we pimped it real good. We had christmas lights, we had a cooler, we had a huge piece of rasticulate saying "porchclimbers" that will never be taken down. We had big lists of guests that they could sign when they came in, we had 72 wildcat stro
ng, and a few thousand mL of gin, vodka, not to mention the lemons making a drink with bloody attitude. Just look at the before and after of Pieper. We laughed, we cried, we drank drinks that had glowing things in them, it was fantastic. We thought the drinks were too weak but then we were hammered, literally while we were trying to figure out if the drinks were too weak. We had a quote board and the things people wrote were fantastic.

"That's not a unicorn, it's a horse with a sword, here to defend my hopes and dreams"


"Can I be your manservant?"


"no"


"I love Willsy" (don't know who wrote that)


"Are these porchclimbers strong enou- I'm drunk."



And drunk we were. At some point in the evening the crowd filtered out, hammered. We were in the zone. I think we might have been lone for an hour before we realised Derek, myself, Frankie, Lindsay and Graeme were the only people left. We were sitting there, ripped, staring at each other from the backs of our minds, wondering where everyone went. The party didn't stop there. Derek was on fire. He had the cooler in is arms, dropping it every so often, stumbling to pick it back up and hold it above him like it was the stanley cup and he was going to drink out of it. He sucked every last drop of lemony poison out of that thing, and that's when he went to town on the lemons. He sat there eating lemon after lemon, apparently trying to recoup some of the alcohol at the party that didn't make it into his system. I have 3 minutes of priceless video that I cannot share at the request of Frankie. We're worried about his political career and future mudslinging campaigns against him using this video as evidence, so sorry, no YouTube this time. But my god it's funny. He's got his head right inside that cooler, and when he pulls it out he looks at us defensively and barks "WHAT?" Like we have three heads. Then he tries to get my attention repeatedly as I'm in conversation with the girls, just so he can tell me how concentrated the lemons are. "These are probably concentrated! These are bitter! OW! (lemon rind hits him in the face) MARCUS! MARCUS! (licks fingers, looks around distractedly, back at the camera now) MARCUS! These are actual lemon rinds." Like he can't believe it. The video ends cutting him off as he's about to tell me he's parched. "I am parched." We died laughing. He said parched about 20 more times that night, it's a new word in our vocab now.


So after that I was off to TO for some camp partying. Kilmer is back from a year in Oz at teacher's college, and I was very excited to see him again. Kilmer, I love you. I am heading up to the Kilmer cottage on New Year's with Frankie and Derek to ring in the 07, and I am stoked for that. However, life right now is not unexciting. Normally when you bastards leave Guelph I'm sitting here staring at my parents, and they're staring at me. Then the questions start, the interrogation, the quibbling, the squabbling over details, the coversations about how hard it is to find a good thermostat for cheap on Ebay. The list goes on. I love my parents unconditionally, but I think I speak for everyone reading this when I say "I can only take so much."


Frankie and Lindsay moved in for a few days (hence the 5 of us left over after the party) after graduating, and we had a blast, even though I was busy in the lab from time to time. Now that has all passed, but the L-bomb as I like to call her has moved back in cause she has some mall hours over the holidays, so now I have a friend. We are a terrible influence on each other, it is a struggle to leave the house before 3 in the afternoon and can't watch less than 2 movies in a day. Also we can't stop talking about everything, and so I have to save my productive times for times when I'm alone like now. It may sound like I'm complaining but I'm not. It is possible my parents are a little jealous/sad that I would rather hang out here, but Lindsay doesn't tell me I should change my pants cause I've been wearing them for 3, 5 or 7 days, and she also doesn't complain if I don't want to get off the couch, in fact that's encouraged, what would you do?

Apparently there's a secret door in Derek's room that leads to a harbour, in which a large ship is moored. The ship is bound for the south coast of Africa to look for jewels, trade tea and coffee, and chart the rocky shores and high seas of the cape of good hope. Apparently we are about to get on that ship, and here we're waving goodbye to everyone at 103 for the last time. Or maybe we were just drunk and this picture merely suggests that. Either way the prospect is exciting.

PS the pictures aren't blurry cause of an effect of the camera. Everything was actually blurry that night, ask anyone who was there.

Happy New Year you magnificent bastards

Love Marcus

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

I'M SORRY


I'm sorry I haven't written in so long, I've been taking heat over it. It's nice to know I have faithful readers - I shall not be less faithful than you dear reader. This is a note to say I still blog, don't worry, but the last week or so has been maniacal, and this is a 10 minute gap between a presentation I just gave to 3 faculty members (that's worse than a full room by the way) and me heading to my house so I can go cut down a christmas tree, the 1 thing I have left to do before I am allowed to book it to toronto for 3 days of insanity. News to follow. Sorry so short, but merry christmas if I don't write before then. I love you, really I do.


Friday, December 08, 2006

Let the idiot entertain




Oh man - have you ever had a rough day? Have you ever had a day so rough that you go to bed to get away from it? Have you ever had the shittiness follow you like a sickness? So you wake up and it has only gotten worse? It has actually carried over to the next day? It's getting to the point of hilarity, which it's why it's going to get on the blog - so at least you can benefit from it, because I am not.




Let's start with yesterday. Apart from the weather, very infuriating day. I had a fantastic presentation the day before (I thought) so I was feeling good about myself. I decided to stay o the ball and graph this section of the experiment the way my supervisor wanted. We were both curious in seeing the outcome. So I did it and I sent it off. I got a terse, angry reply that a) he had no idea what I was graphing (I guess the title wasn't enough), b) it meant nothing alone, it had to be compared to some other section of the experiment (okay, but I still think it showed something by itself), c) 'as a graduate student' I should be drawing conclusions about my own data, simply sending an excel file is 'just not enough'. As if I just graph things and send them off without thinking about them. I didn't think we were having an internet conference, I thought I could just send it and we could chat about it later. Infuriating. So I added the second graph, resent. Another terse reply. Here's what you need: (list of seven separate excel sheets, all with different graphs and different data), we have to meet (how about tomorrow at 11?) before you can start the experiment and go over this (third time I've heard this threat). So I sat back down. This was annoying. Every time I thought I did something right it was thrown back in my face with a list of more things to do and a small deriding about how what I did was not good enough. What a buzz kill. By the time I got to the seven page excel file I decided I'd had enough, I sat and watched YouTube for a bit. I had amotivational syndrome. I did NOT feel like doing anything, including making dinner. I was depressed. I know I took it hard, but it was just bad timing. I was a lone all day and nothing was going as planned. Then Derek got home and I made myself feel a bit better, we had conversations about completely unrelated subjects. I then brought up tobogganing but told him I'd asked Frankie already and she had to pack up to go home. Well, Frankie had had an unknown change of heart, so she called to see if he wanted to go, but by that time he'd gotten it in his head because of me that it wasn't happening, so he decided to do homework. That fit with the 'false hope' theme of the day. . . I decided I'd finish the excel file and send it off, which I did. At this point I was sick and tired of this, so I decided to send off the email for the porchclimber party which we are having. Here it is, if you can read it you're invited:


> How can you ignore a subject line like that? In fact, I think it may get me
> into the junk mail folder. . .
>
> Oh well
>
>
>
> Maybe I'll send out another email about that.
>
>
>
> Well, I think that subject line says it all, so all you need now is a date.
> December 15th, it's happening. If you want to come (your house is invited
> too) please let me know. I need names so we know how much to buy. It's
> going to be $10. Give me a vote also on if you want to go out after or
> party here, and we will adjust the start time accordingly. $10 to predrink
> is a damned steal. In fact the way these things usually go you won't need
> any more after that!
>
>
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> Let's kick off the beginning of the holidays and kick the exams in the face.
> Let's be friends, come to our party.
>
>
>
> -Marcus, Derek and Graeme




What was the subject line? PORCHCLIMBERS MOTHERFUCKER


the most obnoxious subject I have ever written. I wanted it to grab attention.

I'd had enough of Thursday, December the Seventh, 2006. I went to sleep. Want to know how I woke up? It could have been a movie. I actually have never woken up in any way like this before.

I was walking throught the woods with a girl. At the edge of the wood there was a meadow, it was autumn. At the edge of the meadow grew those plants with the burrs all over them, as they do in life. We picked them and studied them, talking about what a neat adaptation they have and how this must be how velcro was conceived of. I pointed out that she had a couple stuck to her hood, as I stuck a couple to her hood. She threw a handful at me, which I ducked. We laughed, we ran, we chased, and in the classic way of these things we ended up on the ground, kissing. They were the kind of kisses you knew had been a long time in coming, like something you've wanted to tell a person but never had the courage to. With my eyes closed I heard her say "Will it still be like this when we're together?" I didn't know if I'd heard right, that is a strange thing to say. With the words "of course" poised on my lips, I opened my eyes to see her face, and all I saw was my pillow in front of my face suffocating me, with the disorienting sensation of sleep and sunlight in my face. I scowled. What a kick in the pants.

I got up and put on a pot of oatmeal, fired the old rig to see what emails awaited. I wanted to go back to bed. Two emails, one from Lindsay one from Derek, both asking the same question: "Did you mean to invite your supervisor to the party? That would be hilarious if he came!"

I checked my 'sent folder'. He was in the list of recipients. I guess i was pretty used to sending him emails by late last night.

I wanted to go back to bed. Still do.

We have to meet at 11 to go over my data.

I feel nauseous.










Sunday, December 03, 2006

small entry



I have no time to blog anything, got a presentation on Wednesday I'm going to be working on like mad, so that's what I'm doing now. Writing to say I wish I could write, but expect an entry after Wednesday. Here is a picture of Pieper generating a galaxy with his bare hands.






If you can read this you're invited to our porch climber party on the 15th. I will send out an email. In good time.






Keep it real, generate universes with your limbs.






-Marcus



PS, this is how I feel about my presentation